....But I'm back. Kinda got off course for a while. Seems like Super Bowl, Valentine's Day and PMS all kinda worked together to just totally through me off track. But as of today, I'm back with it. I never really went off the diet, I just didn't keep up with calories, didn't excercise, didn't drink water and splurged a bit too much from time to time. So I didn't totally give up, I just didn't do so well.
Today was our second weigh in day for our school's "Biggest Loser." I'm down 0.4 pounds. Not anywhere near what it should be, but given the circumstances, I'm just overjoyed that I didn't gain. I would have been happy just maintaining, but the fact that I lost.....I'm really happy!
So today I start counting calories again.
Lunch: Wendy's Taco Salad (440 cals)
Regular Ranch (100 cals)
2 sour creams (90 cals)
Actually, I didn't eat all that. I left about a third of the salad. I've noticed that I'm filling up quicker now than I used to. :-)
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
I've gotten slack!
I just looked back and my last post was a week ago yesterday. What happened to counting calories and being accountable everyday?? I don't know, but I need to start back again.
We had a second weigh-in for my school's version of "The Biggest Loser," and in two weeks time I've lost 4.4 pounds. So I must be doing something right. Either that or I was wearing much lighter clothing yesterday than I was the first day I weighed. :-) I don't feel like I've done all that great. Especially last week. I just got so slack in every area. And boy oh boy!! Superbowl Sunday night...... I ate and ate and ate all the wrong things, but it was so good. We had some friends over and we played dominoes and ate pizza and chile and chips and dip and all kinds of stuff while we watched the game. It was fun and I had a blast, but it wasn't good for my diet. Oh and by the way...when I mention "diet" on here, please know that I'm considering it a lifestyle change and a new way of eating, but "diet" is much easier and shorter to say. I know a lot of nutrition minded people don't like the word "diet" but as I said, it's just easier.
I'm still having issues with eating enough. I posted yesterday on Storknet and got a lot of encouragement and good advice there. I'm going to post here what I wrote and some of the replies I received. I would post it all, but that would be a lot of stuff. So, I'll include the parts that seemed to help me the most and hope that no one who replied back to me there, reads this and becomes offended if they don't see their response. If I don't include something here that was written there, it's not because I didn't appreciate it (because I DID and do appreciate everyone over there), it's just that there was some repeated info. So anyway, here is my original post with a few of the replies:
My obsession in life right now is losing weight. I know you're supposed to have a certain amount of calories in your diet a day to keep from going in starvation mode. But my problem is, I don't eat ENOUGH. I'm just not hungry. I don't eat breakfast (which I know is a no-no and I'm trying to work on it). My lunches and dinners are always very small. Yesterday all I had until supper were two apples. I'm just not hungry. About three weeks ago I did really good. I brought in bananas and peanut butter and crackers and I grazed all day (or at least tried to). I know they say that's what you should do: have 5-6 small meals instead of 3 big ones. But I have a really hard time eating when I'm not hungry. Yesterday it was so bad that if I thought about food, I'd almost get nauseaus (sp?). I'm not sick, as this is the way I've been for a very long time now. I'm not a thirsty person either. Never have been. So I know I stay in a constant state of dehydration, because I don't drink the ammount of water (or anything else) that I should.Any ideas or tips on what I can/should do to change? I hate forcing myself to eat b/c it feels very counter productive to weightloss, not to mention it's just a pain in the butt. But I guess that's what I'm going to HAVE to do isn't it? I've GOT to start drinking more and getting my calorie count up. I just don't know how. I once heard someone say you have to be a special kind of stupid to forget to eat. So I guess I'm a special kind of stupid...I forget to eat and drink all the time. lol
Reply:
In my opinion the whole starvation mode is overblown. The calorie low is supposed to be 1200 but if you don't get them every single day your weight loss isn't quickly going to shut down, 1200 is a general rule. The bigger issue is that you're not getting enough nutrients. Also, calorie intake can be figured out over a period of three days or a week as opposed to 1200 every day. ~"Viketory"
First off, you are NOT a special kind of stupid. Banish that thought. It does take some planning to eat like you should. Do you have a target number you are trying to reach a day? I can sympathize with the dehydration bit because I don't drink enough, either. I try not to view what I eat as a weight loss or diet effort but rather as a lifestyle adjustment that will make me healthier. That way I'm not deprived, and slip-ups aren't an excuse to give up altogether. Short of planning what you eat, I don't know of any way to make that easier. It does get easier with time. If you've been eating too little for a long time, that will make your stomach unable to easily accomodate more and that's probably why you feel sick. Little meals is still the way to go. If you only eat little meals, then try to make them a high quality protein and a complex carbohydrate. If you can't eat a lot, then make the protein a little higher in calories than you normally would, just be sure it's high quality, low fat, and non trans fat (I was thinking about peanut butter here--which is an excellent easy way to get extra calories--providing it's natural peanut butter so you're not consuming trans fats....).Your plan of three weeks ago was a good one....you might add whole wheat crackers...some cheese if you eat it, some meats (if you don't care for packaged lunchmeats, buy quality deli meat or get precooked chicken breast)........It's all little steps. Make small goals, even if it's just that you will eat four balanced meals a day--they don't have to be huge, just make them count. If that doesn't work for you, then I suggest you see your dr. and ask for help--a referral to a nutrionist/registered dietician couldn't hurt and they could give you specific direction. ~"RLB"
I attended a nutrition class the other day and I just want to mention how important breakfast is and how it does impact on that starvation mode. Your metabolism is like a furnace and for it to be able to burn/work it needs to things. It needs fuel (food) and it needs oxygen (exercise). Without the two it is liked a banked fire that doesn't really do much but keep the chill off and sit there ready to burn. So when you get up in the morning, your fire has been banked all night. Not doing much at all. For it to really start to burn, it needs to have fuel added. So you need to eat. Not eating breakfast is one of the easiest and quickest ways to put your body into starvation mode until you do eat... And for most people it is lunch. As for not eating enough. I would be more concerned about what you are eating right now rather than the actual caloric intake. If you are only eating two apples per day you are not getting nearly enough of the nutrients that your body needs to stay healthy. Your body will eventually stop burning fat if the low caloric intake is a constant. But it will take a while to get there. It won't happen in a day or two, and maybe not even in a month. But it will eventually happen. Yes forcing yourself to eat is counterproductive and will probably force you into a mindset about food that isn't healthy. So if I were in your situation I would probably sit down the night before and set out all that you plan to eat the next day and make it my goal to consume that amount of food. And try to add some milk into that as well. It has good calories and is full of healthy nutrients. Sorry about the breakfast lecture... I have actually lost 10lbs since I started eating breakfast every day. ~"Paige"
The nutritionist at ******* in *********** told me that no normal sized adult woman should ever go under 1200 calories per day. Your body needs those calories to function in every way. You may not go into starvation mode right away but you will begin to feel sapped of energy which will make you less likely to exercise which is needed for the weightloss you desire.I know when you start eating healthy it can be hard to reach the 1200 calorie mark. You could eat fruit and veggies all day and never get there. The trick is to find some healthy high calorie snacks. Take raw almonds for example. They are very good for you and they are 10 calories EACH. Eat a handful of 20 almonds and you have eaten 200 calories that are protien filled and rich in omega oils to boot. Raw walnuts are another good choice. Don't eat your apple alone. Add a small piece of cheese or a tablespoon of natural peanut butter. Make some ranch dip using plain yogurt or low fat sour cream and dip your veggies in it to add a few extra calories. Brown rice is great for you and high in calories. Eat an avacado. Very high in calories and SO good for you as far as Omegas go. Make what you eat count. Good luck to you. ~"My_Boy's_Mom"
To all the ladies you replied back to me yesterday, Thank You very much!!!! I appreciate you all very, very much.
Ok.....
Back to keeping track of eating and excercise.
Breakfast: One small apple
Lunch: Smart Ones - Mandarin Chicken
Snack: 2Tbsp peanutbutter (190 cals)
We had a second weigh-in for my school's version of "The Biggest Loser," and in two weeks time I've lost 4.4 pounds. So I must be doing something right. Either that or I was wearing much lighter clothing yesterday than I was the first day I weighed. :-) I don't feel like I've done all that great. Especially last week. I just got so slack in every area. And boy oh boy!! Superbowl Sunday night...... I ate and ate and ate all the wrong things, but it was so good. We had some friends over and we played dominoes and ate pizza and chile and chips and dip and all kinds of stuff while we watched the game. It was fun and I had a blast, but it wasn't good for my diet. Oh and by the way...when I mention "diet" on here, please know that I'm considering it a lifestyle change and a new way of eating, but "diet" is much easier and shorter to say. I know a lot of nutrition minded people don't like the word "diet" but as I said, it's just easier.
I'm still having issues with eating enough. I posted yesterday on Storknet and got a lot of encouragement and good advice there. I'm going to post here what I wrote and some of the replies I received. I would post it all, but that would be a lot of stuff. So, I'll include the parts that seemed to help me the most and hope that no one who replied back to me there, reads this and becomes offended if they don't see their response. If I don't include something here that was written there, it's not because I didn't appreciate it (because I DID and do appreciate everyone over there), it's just that there was some repeated info. So anyway, here is my original post with a few of the replies:
My obsession in life right now is losing weight. I know you're supposed to have a certain amount of calories in your diet a day to keep from going in starvation mode. But my problem is, I don't eat ENOUGH. I'm just not hungry. I don't eat breakfast (which I know is a no-no and I'm trying to work on it). My lunches and dinners are always very small. Yesterday all I had until supper were two apples. I'm just not hungry. About three weeks ago I did really good. I brought in bananas and peanut butter and crackers and I grazed all day (or at least tried to). I know they say that's what you should do: have 5-6 small meals instead of 3 big ones. But I have a really hard time eating when I'm not hungry. Yesterday it was so bad that if I thought about food, I'd almost get nauseaus (sp?). I'm not sick, as this is the way I've been for a very long time now. I'm not a thirsty person either. Never have been. So I know I stay in a constant state of dehydration, because I don't drink the ammount of water (or anything else) that I should.Any ideas or tips on what I can/should do to change? I hate forcing myself to eat b/c it feels very counter productive to weightloss, not to mention it's just a pain in the butt. But I guess that's what I'm going to HAVE to do isn't it? I've GOT to start drinking more and getting my calorie count up. I just don't know how. I once heard someone say you have to be a special kind of stupid to forget to eat. So I guess I'm a special kind of stupid...I forget to eat and drink all the time. lol
Reply:
In my opinion the whole starvation mode is overblown. The calorie low is supposed to be 1200 but if you don't get them every single day your weight loss isn't quickly going to shut down, 1200 is a general rule. The bigger issue is that you're not getting enough nutrients. Also, calorie intake can be figured out over a period of three days or a week as opposed to 1200 every day. ~"Viketory"
First off, you are NOT a special kind of stupid. Banish that thought. It does take some planning to eat like you should. Do you have a target number you are trying to reach a day? I can sympathize with the dehydration bit because I don't drink enough, either. I try not to view what I eat as a weight loss or diet effort but rather as a lifestyle adjustment that will make me healthier. That way I'm not deprived, and slip-ups aren't an excuse to give up altogether. Short of planning what you eat, I don't know of any way to make that easier. It does get easier with time. If you've been eating too little for a long time, that will make your stomach unable to easily accomodate more and that's probably why you feel sick. Little meals is still the way to go. If you only eat little meals, then try to make them a high quality protein and a complex carbohydrate. If you can't eat a lot, then make the protein a little higher in calories than you normally would, just be sure it's high quality, low fat, and non trans fat (I was thinking about peanut butter here--which is an excellent easy way to get extra calories--providing it's natural peanut butter so you're not consuming trans fats....).Your plan of three weeks ago was a good one....you might add whole wheat crackers...some cheese if you eat it, some meats (if you don't care for packaged lunchmeats, buy quality deli meat or get precooked chicken breast)........It's all little steps. Make small goals, even if it's just that you will eat four balanced meals a day--they don't have to be huge, just make them count. If that doesn't work for you, then I suggest you see your dr. and ask for help--a referral to a nutrionist/registered dietician couldn't hurt and they could give you specific direction. ~"RLB"
I attended a nutrition class the other day and I just want to mention how important breakfast is and how it does impact on that starvation mode. Your metabolism is like a furnace and for it to be able to burn/work it needs to things. It needs fuel (food) and it needs oxygen (exercise). Without the two it is liked a banked fire that doesn't really do much but keep the chill off and sit there ready to burn. So when you get up in the morning, your fire has been banked all night. Not doing much at all. For it to really start to burn, it needs to have fuel added. So you need to eat. Not eating breakfast is one of the easiest and quickest ways to put your body into starvation mode until you do eat... And for most people it is lunch. As for not eating enough. I would be more concerned about what you are eating right now rather than the actual caloric intake. If you are only eating two apples per day you are not getting nearly enough of the nutrients that your body needs to stay healthy. Your body will eventually stop burning fat if the low caloric intake is a constant. But it will take a while to get there. It won't happen in a day or two, and maybe not even in a month. But it will eventually happen. Yes forcing yourself to eat is counterproductive and will probably force you into a mindset about food that isn't healthy. So if I were in your situation I would probably sit down the night before and set out all that you plan to eat the next day and make it my goal to consume that amount of food. And try to add some milk into that as well. It has good calories and is full of healthy nutrients. Sorry about the breakfast lecture... I have actually lost 10lbs since I started eating breakfast every day. ~"Paige"
The nutritionist at ******* in *********** told me that no normal sized adult woman should ever go under 1200 calories per day. Your body needs those calories to function in every way. You may not go into starvation mode right away but you will begin to feel sapped of energy which will make you less likely to exercise which is needed for the weightloss you desire.I know when you start eating healthy it can be hard to reach the 1200 calorie mark. You could eat fruit and veggies all day and never get there. The trick is to find some healthy high calorie snacks. Take raw almonds for example. They are very good for you and they are 10 calories EACH. Eat a handful of 20 almonds and you have eaten 200 calories that are protien filled and rich in omega oils to boot. Raw walnuts are another good choice. Don't eat your apple alone. Add a small piece of cheese or a tablespoon of natural peanut butter. Make some ranch dip using plain yogurt or low fat sour cream and dip your veggies in it to add a few extra calories. Brown rice is great for you and high in calories. Eat an avacado. Very high in calories and SO good for you as far as Omegas go. Make what you eat count. Good luck to you. ~"My_Boy's_Mom"
To all the ladies you replied back to me yesterday, Thank You very much!!!! I appreciate you all very, very much.
Ok.....
Back to keeping track of eating and excercise.
Breakfast: One small apple
Lunch: Smart Ones - Mandarin Chicken
Snack: 2Tbsp peanutbutter (190 cals)
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
CHD Awareness
Please allow me a non weightloss focussed entry. In 2002, I was pregnant at the same time as a very dear friend of mine. Within three months of each other we shared the joy of discovering we were pregnant, first doctor appointments, and the sensations of our beautiful girls moving within us. Tragically, my little girl was born still. I didn't think there could be a greater loss. Then a few months later, my friend delivered her little girl. However, her sweet angel was born with a heart defect. This family had to live through their little girl's fight for life. My heart broke again when I heard the news that baby Allison lost her fight on August 13, 2002. So my friend, Alexis, has been trying to build awareness for Congenital Heart Defects ever since. February is CHD Awareness month. I'm going to post Alexis post from her blog here in hopes that the few that read my blog will remember, be aware, and hug their own children a little tighter, and be so very thankful for the blessings that we have.
You're in my heart and prayers Alexis!! Allison will NEVER be forgotten!! :hugs:
http://ajpr2.blogspot.com/2007/01/show-little-heart-help-spread-awareness.html
You're in my heart and prayers Alexis!! Allison will NEVER be forgotten!! :hugs:
http://ajpr2.blogspot.com/2007/01/show-little-heart-help-spread-awareness.html
Blahs
The blahs. I've got 'em. Don't know why really, other than the fact that I feel like I'm not ever going to get this weightloss thing right. I'll either do really well eating and not do well with water and excercise, or I'll do well in the excercise department and not the other two, or do really well drinking water and not in the other areas. I haven't kept track of my calorie intake in I can't tell you how long. I'm conscious of what I'm eating and when and all that, but that's it. I fallen down on the job of writing it down and keeping up with it. I've had cravings for Coke floats that would kill. So I gave in. Saturday and Sunday night I had a Diet Pepsi float. Does it count that I used a DIET soda???? Probably not. Haven't excercised or drank water in a very long time. I just feel like such a failure. I feel like giving up, but I'm not going to. I'll keep trying. I've adopted the song UNWRITTEN by Natasha Bedingfield as my "theme song." I'm going to try to copy and paste the lyrics here. It just helps me remember that I can always start over again and each day is a brand new day. I played that song for myself this morning, hoping it would help, but it didn't. I've still got these blahs. I can't get rid of them. I'm already failing today. I've been up for over three hours now and still haven't had breakfast.
See that's the thing. I never thought it'd be so dang complicated. If I could cut back on what I'd eat, then it wouldn't be so hard. But this whole deal of not eating ENOUGH and trying to get more of the RIGHT calories in per day..... It's just more complicated than I thought it would be. I never expected it to be easy, but it's just an all consuming worry ALL the time. Am I eating enough? Am I eating the right thing? Should I be eating something different or more healthy? I need to excercise. I need to drink water. It just seems like a never ending stream of thoughts reminding me I'm not doing everything right. I'm tired of it all. But I can't quit. I can't. I've got to do this. Not just for myself, but for Austin. He deserves a healthy mom. I've GOT to do this. But sometimes I'm soooo afraid it's just never going to happen. Ever. How do I keep those fears at bay? I'm not sure there is a way. Anyway..... I'm going to try to paste those lyrics now.
Unwritten lyrics
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten.
See that's the thing. I never thought it'd be so dang complicated. If I could cut back on what I'd eat, then it wouldn't be so hard. But this whole deal of not eating ENOUGH and trying to get more of the RIGHT calories in per day..... It's just more complicated than I thought it would be. I never expected it to be easy, but it's just an all consuming worry ALL the time. Am I eating enough? Am I eating the right thing? Should I be eating something different or more healthy? I need to excercise. I need to drink water. It just seems like a never ending stream of thoughts reminding me I'm not doing everything right. I'm tired of it all. But I can't quit. I can't. I've got to do this. Not just for myself, but for Austin. He deserves a healthy mom. I've GOT to do this. But sometimes I'm soooo afraid it's just never going to happen. Ever. How do I keep those fears at bay? I'm not sure there is a way. Anyway..... I'm going to try to paste those lyrics now.
Unwritten lyrics
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten.
Friday, January 26, 2007
Yay! It's Friday!!
I am soooo happy it's Friday!!! You just don't know!!!!! I've got so much junk that I need to do, but just can't get focussed enough to do it! I can't wait til 3:00!!
Anyway....Shame on me! I didn't keep track of what I ate yesterday. I didn't do too bad though, I don't think. I didn't eat breakfast. And as usual, I didn't eat enough in general. Didn't drink enough H2O. But I did excercise. Thirty minutes on the bike. Not great, but not bad either.
Today, I bought myself and my office mate a bacon, egg and cheese biscuit from Bojangles. I had half a sub on whole wheat from Subway for lunch. It was a roast beef sub with cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, olives, oil/vinegar and mustard. NO mayonaise. I was good. I love mayo, but didn't have it. :-)
No water so far today. But remember when I said I was going to try drinking at the top of the hour? Well it works when I remember to do it. lol
Our school nurse is on my school's Biggest Loser team. She told me the other day to eat a big breakfast, a smaller lunch and a tiny supper. That way it gives your body a chance to burn the largest amount of consumed calories earlier on in the day. Makes sense to me.
I know this has been a choppy entry, but really didn't have much to write about this time, but wanted to write something since I didn't write at all yesterday.
Here's hoping for a WONDERFUL weekend!!
Anyway....Shame on me! I didn't keep track of what I ate yesterday. I didn't do too bad though, I don't think. I didn't eat breakfast. And as usual, I didn't eat enough in general. Didn't drink enough H2O. But I did excercise. Thirty minutes on the bike. Not great, but not bad either.
Today, I bought myself and my office mate a bacon, egg and cheese biscuit from Bojangles. I had half a sub on whole wheat from Subway for lunch. It was a roast beef sub with cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, olives, oil/vinegar and mustard. NO mayonaise. I was good. I love mayo, but didn't have it. :-)
No water so far today. But remember when I said I was going to try drinking at the top of the hour? Well it works when I remember to do it. lol
Our school nurse is on my school's Biggest Loser team. She told me the other day to eat a big breakfast, a smaller lunch and a tiny supper. That way it gives your body a chance to burn the largest amount of consumed calories earlier on in the day. Makes sense to me.
I know this has been a choppy entry, but really didn't have much to write about this time, but wanted to write something since I didn't write at all yesterday.
Here's hoping for a WONDERFUL weekend!!
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
You know, it's hard coming up with new titles everyday!
Everytime I sit down to write, I have to come up with a title. I don't want it to be the same thing everday, but it's really hard to always come up with something interesting to call each entry. Oh well....
Last night we had mexican take out. I didn't tell Bill that I'd just had the same thing for lunch the day before. I love mexican. And I almost always get the same thing. The chicken and rice and cheese dish. It's a weekness of mine. Considering the things I could be getting, it's not too bad of a choice. I don't think it is anyway.
I'm doing really well about not eating at night, so I'm proud of myself for that. Water and excercise though still isn't happening. I've GOT to figure out a way of doing better with both of those. And I need to figure out how to eat more of the right things throughout the day. My problem is organization. If I were more organized, I could put meals and snacks together the night before and have the next day's food all figured out. But I"m not that organized. Never have been. Plus, I think a large part of the problem is the fact I'm L-A-Z-Y. I'm lazy and I've grown accostomed to being in some fairly bad habits. When I get home, all I want to do is spend time with my family and relax. Then before you know it, it's time to put Austin to bed and then, when Bill is home, that is our quality time together. I've tried getting up really early and getting stuff done. Yea, that ain't gonna happen either. LOL So I know something's gotta give. It's just remembering that fact when the time comes. Old habits really do die hard.
This morning I've had coffee with cream and Splenda. Guess I need to look up the calories for that. I'll be eating Mini Wheats with milk in just a little. I'm also going to make myself drink a glass of water before I do anything else. You know, that might be what I'm going to have to do. I dislike water sooooo much that I'm going to have to look at it like medicine. Something I have to do at certain times of the day. That just might work. If I know at certain times, I have to stop what I'm doing and chug a glass of water, I won't have to worry about getting it in here and there. I know you're not supposed to drink too much to fast, but maybe a glass an hour or so?? That just might work. If I can just remember to do it. Just like old habits are hard to break, new ones are just as hard to begin. But I can do this.
Ok, I've rambled enough. Oh, I found out that my bestest friend in the entire world is going to start reading this!! So YAY!!! We've known each other since we were four years old. She truly is my best friend and the sister I never had. So welcome sis!!
Ok, this is really it. Off to drink my first glass of water!!
Last night we had mexican take out. I didn't tell Bill that I'd just had the same thing for lunch the day before. I love mexican. And I almost always get the same thing. The chicken and rice and cheese dish. It's a weekness of mine. Considering the things I could be getting, it's not too bad of a choice. I don't think it is anyway.
I'm doing really well about not eating at night, so I'm proud of myself for that. Water and excercise though still isn't happening. I've GOT to figure out a way of doing better with both of those. And I need to figure out how to eat more of the right things throughout the day. My problem is organization. If I were more organized, I could put meals and snacks together the night before and have the next day's food all figured out. But I"m not that organized. Never have been. Plus, I think a large part of the problem is the fact I'm L-A-Z-Y. I'm lazy and I've grown accostomed to being in some fairly bad habits. When I get home, all I want to do is spend time with my family and relax. Then before you know it, it's time to put Austin to bed and then, when Bill is home, that is our quality time together. I've tried getting up really early and getting stuff done. Yea, that ain't gonna happen either. LOL So I know something's gotta give. It's just remembering that fact when the time comes. Old habits really do die hard.
This morning I've had coffee with cream and Splenda. Guess I need to look up the calories for that. I'll be eating Mini Wheats with milk in just a little. I'm also going to make myself drink a glass of water before I do anything else. You know, that might be what I'm going to have to do. I dislike water sooooo much that I'm going to have to look at it like medicine. Something I have to do at certain times of the day. That just might work. If I know at certain times, I have to stop what I'm doing and chug a glass of water, I won't have to worry about getting it in here and there. I know you're not supposed to drink too much to fast, but maybe a glass an hour or so?? That just might work. If I can just remember to do it. Just like old habits are hard to break, new ones are just as hard to begin. But I can do this.
Ok, I've rambled enough. Oh, I found out that my bestest friend in the entire world is going to start reading this!! So YAY!!! We've known each other since we were four years old. She truly is my best friend and the sister I never had. So welcome sis!!
Ok, this is really it. Off to drink my first glass of water!!
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
I'm back!
No, I haven't forgotten about this blog. I've been sick. Well at least I thought I was sick. Just between me and the few of you who are reading this, I'm beginning to wonder if what I had was just KILLER period cramps. I started having abdominal pain Sunday evening and it got to the point I was doubled over by Tuesday. I went to the dr. and she wanted me to have two CT scans done. One of which involve and enema and the other an IV. I absolutely hated both. To make things even worse, everything showed to be normal. I know. That's a good thing. But to have gone through all that, just to be told nothing's wrong..... Sheesh!! I know. I'm thankful; don't get me wrong, but you know what I mean. So the dr. said it was either a spastic colon or something viral. I was out of work all week last week except for Friday. Friday was the first day that I felt normal again. It must have been something viral or just really bad period cramps, because I've been fine since Friday. So who knows????
Sorta blew my diet during all that. When I was at my worst, I didn't feel like eating anything. So I know I didn't get my caloric intake for several days. Then I think I made up for not eating over the weekend. I ate anything I wanted to. Yesterday was no better. Didn't eat enough again. And what I did have wasn't the best choice. I had my chicken and rice dinner from Panch Villa's (a mexican restraunt). Had half for lunch and half for dinner. That was it. Nothing else. *sigh* I never in a million years thought my problem would be not eating ENOUGH.
Trying to do better today. I had my Mini Wheats with milk this morning. And will have eggdrop soup for lunch. Haven't done so great with water or excercise. Hopefully will do better with those two things this evening when I get home. We'll see.
I bought a self-hypnosis book yesterday concentrating on attaining your "perfect weight." I've read the first three chapters and have listened to the first 4 sessions of the CD that was included. I think it's helping. Again...we'll see.
Oh, some people here at work have started my school's version of The Biggest Loser. I've joined in on that. The details are being ironed out, but basically we are going to be in 2-4 groups. We will have a group winner and an individual winner. By the end of May whichever group has lost the most weight will get to leave school to go to lunch while the "losers" cover their classes. Also, it's going to cost $5 to be a part of this and the individual who loses the most will win the money pot. So it will be interesting to see how this plays out.
Well, that pretty much sums up the past week. I certainly hope this week is better for me.
Sorta blew my diet during all that. When I was at my worst, I didn't feel like eating anything. So I know I didn't get my caloric intake for several days. Then I think I made up for not eating over the weekend. I ate anything I wanted to. Yesterday was no better. Didn't eat enough again. And what I did have wasn't the best choice. I had my chicken and rice dinner from Panch Villa's (a mexican restraunt). Had half for lunch and half for dinner. That was it. Nothing else. *sigh* I never in a million years thought my problem would be not eating ENOUGH.
Trying to do better today. I had my Mini Wheats with milk this morning. And will have eggdrop soup for lunch. Haven't done so great with water or excercise. Hopefully will do better with those two things this evening when I get home. We'll see.
I bought a self-hypnosis book yesterday concentrating on attaining your "perfect weight." I've read the first three chapters and have listened to the first 4 sessions of the CD that was included. I think it's helping. Again...we'll see.
Oh, some people here at work have started my school's version of The Biggest Loser. I've joined in on that. The details are being ironed out, but basically we are going to be in 2-4 groups. We will have a group winner and an individual winner. By the end of May whichever group has lost the most weight will get to leave school to go to lunch while the "losers" cover their classes. Also, it's going to cost $5 to be a part of this and the individual who loses the most will win the money pot. So it will be interesting to see how this plays out.
Well, that pretty much sums up the past week. I certainly hope this week is better for me.
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