You know, it's hard coming up with new titles everyday!

Everytime I sit down to write, I have to come up with a title. I don't want it to be the same thing everday, but it's really hard to always come up with something interesting to call each entry. Oh well....

Last night we had mexican take out. I didn't tell Bill that I'd just had the same thing for lunch the day before. I love mexican. And I almost always get the same thing. The chicken and rice and cheese dish. It's a weekness of mine. Considering the things I could be getting, it's not too bad of a choice. I don't think it is anyway.

I'm doing really well about not eating at night, so I'm proud of myself for that. Water and excercise though still isn't happening. I've GOT to figure out a way of doing better with both of those. And I need to figure out how to eat more of the right things throughout the day. My problem is organization. If I were more organized, I could put meals and snacks together the night before and have the next day's food all figured out. But I"m not that organized. Never have been. Plus, I think a large part of the problem is the fact I'm L-A-Z-Y. I'm lazy and I've grown accostomed to being in some fairly bad habits. When I get home, all I want to do is spend time with my family and relax. Then before you know it, it's time to put Austin to bed and then, when Bill is home, that is our quality time together. I've tried getting up really early and getting stuff done. Yea, that ain't gonna happen either. LOL So I know something's gotta give. It's just remembering that fact when the time comes. Old habits really do die hard.

This morning I've had coffee with cream and Splenda. Guess I need to look up the calories for that. I'll be eating Mini Wheats with milk in just a little. I'm also going to make myself drink a glass of water before I do anything else. You know, that might be what I'm going to have to do. I dislike water sooooo much that I'm going to have to look at it like medicine. Something I have to do at certain times of the day. That just might work. If I know at certain times, I have to stop what I'm doing and chug a glass of water, I won't have to worry about getting it in here and there. I know you're not supposed to drink too much to fast, but maybe a glass an hour or so?? That just might work. If I can just remember to do it. Just like old habits are hard to break, new ones are just as hard to begin. But I can do this.

Ok, I've rambled enough. Oh, I found out that my bestest friend in the entire world is going to start reading this!! So YAY!!! We've known each other since we were four years old. She truly is my best friend and the sister I never had. So welcome sis!!

Ok, this is really it. Off to drink my first glass of water!!

I'm back!

No, I haven't forgotten about this blog. I've been sick. Well at least I thought I was sick. Just between me and the few of you who are reading this, I'm beginning to wonder if what I had was just KILLER period cramps. I started having abdominal pain Sunday evening and it got to the point I was doubled over by Tuesday. I went to the dr. and she wanted me to have two CT scans done. One of which involve and enema and the other an IV. I absolutely hated both. To make things even worse, everything showed to be normal. I know. That's a good thing. But to have gone through all that, just to be told nothing's wrong..... Sheesh!! I know. I'm thankful; don't get me wrong, but you know what I mean. So the dr. said it was either a spastic colon or something viral. I was out of work all week last week except for Friday. Friday was the first day that I felt normal again. It must have been something viral or just really bad period cramps, because I've been fine since Friday. So who knows????

Sorta blew my diet during all that. When I was at my worst, I didn't feel like eating anything. So I know I didn't get my caloric intake for several days. Then I think I made up for not eating over the weekend. I ate anything I wanted to. Yesterday was no better. Didn't eat enough again. And what I did have wasn't the best choice. I had my chicken and rice dinner from Panch Villa's (a mexican restraunt). Had half for lunch and half for dinner. That was it. Nothing else. *sigh* I never in a million years thought my problem would be not eating ENOUGH.

Trying to do better today. I had my Mini Wheats with milk this morning. And will have eggdrop soup for lunch. Haven't done so great with water or excercise. Hopefully will do better with those two things this evening when I get home. We'll see.

I bought a self-hypnosis book yesterday concentrating on attaining your "perfect weight." I've read the first three chapters and have listened to the first 4 sessions of the CD that was included. I think it's helping. Again...we'll see.

Oh, some people here at work have started my school's version of The Biggest Loser. I've joined in on that. The details are being ironed out, but basically we are going to be in 2-4 groups. We will have a group winner and an individual winner. By the end of May whichever group has lost the most weight will get to leave school to go to lunch while the "losers" cover their classes. Also, it's going to cost $5 to be a part of this and the individual who loses the most will win the money pot. So it will be interesting to see how this plays out.

Well, that pretty much sums up the past week. I certainly hope this week is better for me.

New addition to the family

This weekend has NOT been good diet-wise. Not only have I not been excercising or drinking any water, but I have done a lousy job eating. I gave into chocolate and carbs yesterday and today I just haven't eaten enough of the right things and again, too much of the wrong things. But I have not given up. Going to get back on track tomorrow. Plus, today Bill and I bought a NordicTrack Audio Rider R400. A bike. I think one of the things that have been holding me back so much from excercising has been the fact that it hurts so much to walk. Can't remember if I've said already or not, but I have a slipped disk in my back and it really does hurt to walk for any length of time. I think biking will be better. Plus we have it set up in the den, so I won't feel totally cut off from my family. So I think it's a good step in the right direction.

I think I have already mentioned that I'm pms'ing. Well that has NOT helped this weekend. So, I'm not making excuses for myself, I'm just saying...... I'm not AS bummed as I was earlier today. No, it hasn't been a great weekend, but I'm NOT giving up. Used to be, I'd already given up.

If I quit cramping tonight, I'm going to bike some. So we'll see. :-)

NOT a good day!

Ok, I'm kinda bummed, so I'm just going to copy and paste what I posted on Storknet. Oh, in addition to what I said I had to eat there, I also had .5 banana and 1 tsp of peanut butter for breakfast. Not going to add everything up today. I know it won't be enough calories and they'll be too many of the wrong kind. Sooo..... here's my day and my feelings today:

I have done soooooo lousy today. NO water, haven't excercised in the past, oh I don't know, 4-5 days, haven't eaten NEAR enough, and what I have had has been the wrong stuff. Had my left over mexican for lunch and pork BBQ with slaw and FRIES for supper. I'm pms'ing so I'm hungry for the wrong stuff all the time. I've caught myself, more than once today, looking for chocolate. I know that we have some in the house and I know where it is. I'm just really trying hard to stay away from it. But when I have a bad day, I get in the mindset of, "well, I've done so bad all day today, why not just finish the evening off and have anything I want." I'm thinking about going to get a bannasplit, but am fighting the urge all I can.

WHY do I do so good for a couple of days and then just loose it?!?!?! I soooo suck! Yes, I'm in a pity party too. That's another thing I do. Aren't I wonderful??!?! Ok, I'll stop now.

Here's hoping for a better day tomorrow!

How am I going to eat more?

Ok, yesterday I had a total of 719 calories. That is NOT enough. I know this. I just don't know how to fix it. I eat throughout the day, as you can see in my previous entries. Maybe I should increase my snacks, but dang!!! It's sooooo hard to eat when I'm NOT hungry. I do good to eat what I do. I don't know.... All I know for sure is that we are given new days so that we can have new beginnings. So, I'll try again today. I know for lunch today, I'll be having a mexican dish called Arroz con Pollo (ACP) which is chicken and rice with cheese sauce. I've got to find out somehow, how many calories are in that thing. I'll probably only eat half of it today and the other half tomorrow for lunch. Editing to add: I found the nutrition facts for "Chicken in cheese sauce with Spanish rice." For 10 ozs there's 385.84 calories, 1245.1 sodium, 35.88 carbs and 34.45 protien. Not as bad as I thought it'd be. :-)

Also, I've GOT to find a way to get motivated to excercise and drink water. I'm not doing well on either of those fronts. The only excercise I'm good at right now, is walking. My size makes it hard to do anything else. Not to mention my coordination and balance is aweful. So...I'd ride a bike or swim, but I have no bike and don't have the money to join a gym with a heated pool. So, I'll walk. Have to do better on MAKING myself do it though.

Anyway, I'll be editing this entry throughout the day to keep track of what I eat and the calories. In just a few mins. I'll be having my Mini Wheats and .5 banana.

Breakfast: Mini Wheats (220), .5 banana (52)

Snack: 1/4 cup chex mix (50?)

Lunch: ACP from Pancho's (386)

Snack: 0.5 banana (52), 1 tsp. peanut butter (35)

Supper: Japanese teriyaki salmon and rice (420), Shrimp sauce (160),

Brand new day!

I thank God for new days and new beginnings. I didn't do terrible last night, but didn't do really well either. I feel bad that I didn't excercise and didn't drink much water. And I hate that I got so out of control at supper. But as far as I'm concerned, it's all in the past and today is a new day.

I had a 7:00 chiropractor appointment this morning, so it thrown my eating routine off kilter some. Here it is almost 9:30 and I'm just now eating breakfast. I'll have a group of kids in just a few mins too, so I'm wondering if I'll get to finish it. Anyway, hoping to do MUCH better today.

*fingers crossed*

Breakfast: Mini Wheats (no milk) (180)

Snack: .5 banana (52)

Lunch: Dinty Moore Beef Stew (250)

Snack: .5 banana, 1 tsp peanut butter (87)

Supper: Chicken noodle soup (150)

I was going to have a taco salad from Wendy's but I got home and crashed on the sofa and slept for 2 hours. When I got up, I did not feel like doing anything, let alone, go back out to get food. So I ended up having soup. I came in at 719 calories. Didn't excercise or get much water in. So, not so great. I'll post a new entry tomorrow and whine a little more. LOL :-)

What I'm eating

Ok, need to keep my list of foods today all in one place. So here it is.

Breakfast: Mini Wheates (220)

Snack: 0.5 banana (52), 1 tsp peanut butter (35)

Lunch: Hormel Sweet and Sour Chicken (300)

Snack: 3 peanut butter crackers (90)

Supper: (Kinda went crazy at supper. Think I'm pms'ing, so that's not helping matters.) Three mini hamburger patties dipped in ranch. Half a piece of fried chicken from KFC, half a helping of mashed potatoes and gravy, 2 helpings of mac and cheese, sweet tea. (Don't know calorie content of any of this and really don't want to know.)


Didn't excercise today and my water intake was sorry. I'll try harder tomorrow.